Okay. So. This turns out to be hard.
*deep breath*
Something’s changed the last few days with Goldenrod. She’s MUCH much weaker, she’s suddenly sleeping a great deal, and she seems to have lost interest in any of the things she enjoyed doing — or at the very least, she hasn’t the energy.
Only a week ago, she drove to the fire station to play dominoes and Scrabble for 3 hours. This is a bit abrupt…. but I don’t really want to talk about that. Rather, I want to tell you about the morning.
It was a spectacular morning. Stunning! Not quite cool enough to be called “crisp”, but certainly it was fresh and bright.
So I wanted to take Goldenrod down to the pond.
It isn’t just that she hadn’t yet seen it in the almost two months she’s been here, either (and it’s right there!!). It’s that I’m starting to feel a sense of urgency.
It’s beautiful. She loves beautiful things… and this is a spectacular place. I really want her to see some of it.
And so we did.
For the record: it’s an adventure driving through a rocky New Hampshire pasture, but it was well worth it. (Wish I’d remembered to bring a pillow, though, for her backside!)
We had a lovely visit. I can’t begin to tell you how very wonderful it was.
I showed her the Cedar Waxwings, and where the girls camped out last month. We talked about the polliwogs, and how very low the water levels are.
When I asked to take her picture, she gave me a great big smile.
And when it was time to go back, she was too weak to get up.
So I guess this is a good news, bad news kinda post. The bad news is obvious — but the good news is that she was able to take in a glorious morning.
And wait! There’s more!
She knows that I’m writing this, and she asked me to give her best to all of you who’ve been asking about her. She loves you all.
And she knows that she should have probably said something quite a long time ago about what she suspected about her health, but she really wanted to make that trip to see everyone without a cloud hanging over. I’m still amazed that she made that drive, actually, but I’m very glad she did.
Just like I’m glad she came down to the pond with me this morning.